i heart otters

i heart otters engraved on my wrist

a green ring a green bracelet

one from my love, one from a place i love

content to view ocean waves on the drive home

content to sleep with my loves

a move of true fulfillment 

one can only hope for the best

but for now, it sets fireworks off in my chest

soothing and crackling, just how a soul should be

to be excited enough to fall from trees

soothed. fiery soul.

ocean

accepted to my hometown, a conditional acceptance

but an acceptance nonetheless, from an ottery ocean environment

back where it all began, content at the thought of returning

an ocean blanket is what i need

the fresh air. otters. fresh reef. the sand. 

yet another beginning

a cycle that i dont want to complete. unwilling to return to the place that i'm trying to get away from. 

queen sings me to sleep

he lets me sleep

complete me

Success!

Eureka! Success is addressed, better than the rest
First called, first hired, hopefully not first fired
first day at the job, filled with colors beyond belief
back straining dishes kneeds me at the spine
the tiring thing
watch patrons like a hawk, but with a mothers gaze
don't be too intimidating and don't be naive
the clock ticks away as the opportunity cost waves away
most study and read and do as much as i can
you can't catch me, not even i can

we..

we forget the fallen
and leave them there
we forget the deeds
but the scar remains
only bubbling blood is the remaining evidence
to let go would be to simmer
come to a pause
like a still lake
or hardening lava
open to new thoughts and imaginations
nature is never still, it's always stirred

the calm of the storm

during thunderstorms soaked in rain
i was the only one prepared
papers in hand wrapped in manila folders
a calm before the storm
a chat before the lights are dimmed
success is made
hope is gleaming through the window hoping to pierce my eyes to awaken the beast that slumbers within
the beast in pajamas
good talks and first impressions lift and lighten my heart, my step
imagine myself, freeze frame, in the air. victorious.
now to await the call. will it come in 2 weeks? or has it all been in vain
even if it has been. it will all work out.
more positive than a whore aids test
androgeny may equal coolness?

Two Thousand + Ten

A fresh start in an old place
Stale is the taste you'd expect
but the move is bittersweet, but satisfying
This life was better than the last.